And.

& I finally submitted my Ateneo essay, satisfied with its content. I posted it on my DevArt and Multiply. Here‘s the link to the former, for reference.

& The last day of First Aid Training is tomorrow. It’s all exams and practicals. If we don’t pass, we have to repeat the course. T___T I have to study bandaging more than the rest. And remember to let my elbows touch the floor during CPR.

& The UPCAT is in a week, and I feel so unprepared. One part is screaming for me to cram, the other’s feeling disincentivized because I won’t pass anyway. :| My mock UPCAT is on Sunday, from 8am to 12nn. I’m just going to read up on Science and review certain Math formulas. I wanna see how far I can go on stock knowledge, which is really the point of the entrance test.

& I was so out of it during Economics class. The heat was making me fall asleep. Good luck to me in college. :| Unless I go to DLSU. XD

& I received a letter today. It was addressed to my parents but it was only stapled closed so it wasn’t confidential. I peeked inside and chuckled. Math remedials, haller. :-h So bad at numbers, so very bad at numbers. In ten sessions, I’m expected to catch up. Game, let’s do this.

& I wonder if I have to take remedials for CSDC. I still don’t have vigilancia duties, and it’s been around two weeks since we started. :\ I don’t think I did that bad in my practicals. Did I? :| I got to cite the handbook and the implementing guidelines once, and I even got the number of reports question right. So, idk. I don’t want to take remedials since I have Math to think of and stuff, but I will if I have to. Sigh.

& I wanna work in advertising and marketing.

Deadliest deadline is Wednesday.

I just cried over my Ateneo essay
because it does not exist.

Free day, Friday

Our teachers are probably off being holy in their retreat right now. Me, I just woke up half an hour ago. I’m blissful, but I’m not exactly looking forward to this day.

At the insistence of my parents, I restart my voice lessons today at 3pm. It’s such a hassle. >_< I needed to go to Nina’s house to tape our THE infomercial, but I guess that plan is foiled. In any case, I told both her and Cara that I’d love to do the video editing. Because honestly, I really would. X)

Since I’ll be stuck at home for the better part of the day, I’m going to read the reviewers from Sir Joel and my LSC books. With two weeks to go til the UPCAT, I’m doing all I can do to not panic. The back of my mind is racing and reeling, the red alert alarm blaring deafeningly. It’s just like that episode of Spongebob where he only knew fine dining and breathing, and all the little Spongebobs began to panic because they realized that they threw out his name.

Aside from reading for the UPCAT, I also have a senior’s responsibilities to fulfill. If there’s one thing I can’t neglect, it’s my schoolwork. I really need to show drastic improvement this year. It’ll be my strongest argument for when the time to appeal comes around. I have to finish to lay out three IW cards so I can finish them in school next week, begin writing my prayers for both CL and CSDC, doodle a jacket design, and moar moar moar.

I should probably devote an hour or two today for my Ateneo essay. I need to start drafting it, at the very least, so I can send it to people for critique, giving them ample time to read and I to revise. “Are there any significant experiences you have had or accomplishments you have realized that have helped to define you as a person?” Well, I’ll find out tonight. Before I begin to write with the intention of letting the panel know more about me, I think should first know more about myself.

Huh. Not exactly a free day, after all.

I consider our present sufferings insignificant
compared to the glory that will soon be revealed to us.
(Romans 8:18)

Dear friends, don’t be surprised by the fiery troubles
that are coming in order to test you.
Don’t feel as though something strange is happening to you,
but be happy as you share Christ’s sufferings.
Then you will also be full of joy when he appears again in his glory.
(I Peter 4:12-13)

Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them:
because greater is He that is in you,
than he that is in the world.
(1 John 4:4)

AMEN LORD AMEN.
I’m ready ad infinitum.

Distracted.

I had this habit of letting my mind wander too far from the present. I think that’s what I didn’t do so well in my last three years of high school. I spent most of my time constructing and reconstructing my ideal future instead of working towards it. It was distracting and unproductive.

I’m distracted now. My thoughts and apprehensions on college life are distracting me from the standard responsibilities of an average senior. I should be reviewing for tomorrow’s tests in Physics and Filipino, but I’ve been spacing out. My eyes unfocused on an unseen point, I’ve been creating a rough draft of my Ateneo essay in my head. I don’t even know what to write about yet, I’m just taking note of nice, general phrases to use when the time of actual writing comes. It’s “productive” if you twist the definition of productivity and squint a little, but I know that studying for my Physics and Filipino tests would be more useful to my short-term and long-term needs.

I should really study for these tests. I didn’t study for the last 2fer session tests I had, English and Economics. The night before those tests was the night I got Guitar Hero: On Tour, so I was too into the giddy geek role to play a student. I received my scores today. I got a G and VG respectively. They’re not bad marks, but their sub par to the standards expected of me and the standards I’ve set for myself. (I especially wanted to do well in my Economics test, since a lot of the courses I’m considering are grounded in economics.)

Tomorrow’s another 2fer, and I intend to do well in them both. I’m a bit worried for Physics, since I still don’t know how to apply the trigonometric function of tan and tan-1. I will ask for help tomorrow. I have to master these concepts at the same pace as the rest of my class – my class is really smart, I hate it. :| – and while it’s still being taught at present. I don’t want to make the same mistake I made in Chemistry.

Bottom line is, kidsgbishghfjosjdoakjofjofsdlsnsdonsfonlncsznovns.

Hey baby, what’s your sign?
Opposite over hypotenuse. :>