Weekend of Doom

September 8: Trig session test, Physics Lab practical test
September 8 – 9: Last two days of IW
September 10-12: First Trimestral Exams
September 13: ACET

… How sadistic is that? :|

This weekend is crucial to my academic dignity. I have four IW cards, eleven/nine trimestral exams and one majorly big college entrance test to pass, pass, pass. I must not buckle.

T_______T

I’m nervous for the ACET. I don’t feel prepared. I’m a failure at Math. I can BS my way through English, but I’m just totally worried about the Math. I have a mock ACET tomorrow, though. It might as well be my only real review before the actual ACET. I almost forgot about it. I shall remind my parents so they can arrange my ride. Huhuhu. :|

Senioritis!

I’m feelin’ it crashing over my like large, lazy waves. Emphasis on lazy.

With the UPCAT already over and my ACET forms already in Ateneo, it’s as if I could care less about the rest. I didn’t submit a form to UST anymore, and my DLSU and UA&P forms are still pristine and blank. I seem like I’m dead set to go for DLSU, but really, I just want to go to college. Emphasis on I just want to go to college.

These days, it’s been sabpag this and sabpag that. Sabayang Pagbigkas, and miraculously, I’m at the forefront of its development. :O Alexa, Raizel and I have been zipping around in preparation of this. Plotting out our practice schedules and agendas for those practices, it’s as if the poem grows longer and longer and longer. ._______. I’m the worst at memorization, so more points of pressure on me to be a good example. Durgh.

I have an Economics session test tomorrow. It’s two sessions combined, so it’s everything about Supply&Demand and Elasticity. I’m more or less well-versed here already, I just have to memorize the four standard thingies on the shifting of graphs and the formula for computing this thing that I have to remember. I sound like such a failure, but whatever. >___< Other than that, I’m pretty much dandy. I should be worried, I think. Or at least not so lax. After all, Economics is prevalent in my course choices. Which is weird, because I’m me. :|

The weeks ahead are going to prove challenging, and I really pray for the physical strength to get by. I’ve been having these wicked stomach pains since Sunday. It usually starts out with intense hunger, where my heart begins to race and I begin to tremble. Getting to sustenance is often an ordeal. Once I get my shaking hands on some food, I eat as if I were starved for an indefinite period of time. I just stuff it down my throat, barely enjoying the taste, just to get food in my stomach. My stomach aches after that, but I guess it’s because of how fast I ate? The strange thing is, after less than an hour, the hunger pangs begin to act up again. Sometimes I can’t help but sleep it off, it’s a sharp pain that extends up to my throat. When I get home, the same thing happens again. Late at night, I have to get up for a crap. A stinky crap. And then I sleep a tired sleep and I wake up tired and well, it’s really the same thing. I was talking to Bel (Hi, Bel. :-h) about it, and she thinks it’s a worm. That sounds plausible, but I really don’t have time to get it checked out. It’ll cause unnecessary stress for everyone – my eternally paranoid grandmother, most especially – and take precious time out of my schedule. I just hope this comes to pass soon enough. I can’t get sick(er).

A big huhuhuhuu at my life right now. Huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu. T_______T

Distracted.

I had this habit of letting my mind wander too far from the present. I think that’s what I didn’t do so well in my last three years of high school. I spent most of my time constructing and reconstructing my ideal future instead of working towards it. It was distracting and unproductive.

I’m distracted now. My thoughts and apprehensions on college life are distracting me from the standard responsibilities of an average senior. I should be reviewing for tomorrow’s tests in Physics and Filipino, but I’ve been spacing out. My eyes unfocused on an unseen point, I’ve been creating a rough draft of my Ateneo essay in my head. I don’t even know what to write about yet, I’m just taking note of nice, general phrases to use when the time of actual writing comes. It’s “productive” if you twist the definition of productivity and squint a little, but I know that studying for my Physics and Filipino tests would be more useful to my short-term and long-term needs.

I should really study for these tests. I didn’t study for the last 2fer session tests I had, English and Economics. The night before those tests was the night I got Guitar Hero: On Tour, so I was too into the giddy geek role to play a student. I received my scores today. I got a G and VG respectively. They’re not bad marks, but their sub par to the standards expected of me and the standards I’ve set for myself. (I especially wanted to do well in my Economics test, since a lot of the courses I’m considering are grounded in economics.)

Tomorrow’s another 2fer, and I intend to do well in them both. I’m a bit worried for Physics, since I still don’t know how to apply the trigonometric function of tan and tan-1. I will ask for help tomorrow. I have to master these concepts at the same pace as the rest of my class – my class is really smart, I hate it. :| – and while it’s still being taught at present. I don’t want to make the same mistake I made in Chemistry.

Bottom line is, kidsgbishghfjosjdoakjofjofsdlsnsdonsfonlncsznovns.

Hey baby, what’s your sign?
Opposite over hypotenuse. :>