Distracted.

I had this habit of letting my mind wander too far from the present. I think that’s what I didn’t do so well in my last three years of high school. I spent most of my time constructing and reconstructing my ideal future instead of working towards it. It was distracting and unproductive.

I’m distracted now. My thoughts and apprehensions on college life are distracting me from the standard responsibilities of an average senior. I should be reviewing for tomorrow’s tests in Physics and Filipino, but I’ve been spacing out. My eyes unfocused on an unseen point, I’ve been creating a rough draft of my Ateneo essay in my head. I don’t even know what to write about yet, I’m just taking note of nice, general phrases to use when the time of actual writing comes. It’s “productive” if you twist the definition of productivity and squint a little, but I know that studying for my Physics and Filipino tests would be more useful to my short-term and long-term needs.

I should really study for these tests. I didn’t study for the last 2fer session tests I had, English and Economics. The night before those tests was the night I got Guitar Hero: On Tour, so I was too into the giddy geek role to play a student. I received my scores today. I got a G and VG respectively. They’re not bad marks, but their sub par to the standards expected of me and the standards I’ve set for myself. (I especially wanted to do well in my Economics test, since a lot of the courses I’m considering are grounded in economics.)

Tomorrow’s another 2fer, and I intend to do well in them both. I’m a bit worried for Physics, since I still don’t know how to apply the trigonometric function of tan and tan-1. I will ask for help tomorrow. I have to master these concepts at the same pace as the rest of my class – my class is really smart, I hate it. :| – and while it’s still being taught at present. I don’t want to make the same mistake I made in Chemistry.

Bottom line is, kidsgbishghfjosjdoakjofjofsdlsnsdonsfonlncsznovns.

Hey baby, what’s your sign?
Opposite over hypotenuse. :>