UPCAT thoughts

Traffic at six o’clock in the morning, kamusta. :-h

~ I don’t wanna say much about it, especially my opinion on the content. I’d rather keep it to myself, for fear of bad karma in the future. Whether anything is easy or hard, it’s all a matter of perception anyway. HUHUHU SO HARD.

~ I prayed to the Lord for wisdom and discernment, and the calmness of mind to act accordingly throughout the test. I told Him, I don’t want to replay the test over and over in my mind, playing out what I could’ve done better. I guess you could call me around 90% satisfied with my performance during the exam. I kinda buckled twice, in the middle part of Math and towards the end of Reading Comprehension, but I forgave myself. It was inevitable for me to crumble during Math, and I luckily found the strength to pull myself together to finish the Reading Comprehension to the best of my abilities despite the given circumstances.

~ I can’t help but hope that the mock UPCAT really is a notch higher and as predictive as Sir Joel said it was. I got good stats for my mock UPCAT, good enough, so hopefully I learned from it and took its lessons to the actual UPCAT.

~ I don’t want to be one of the people who took the UPCAT just to say that they passed it. I used to be, but that’s really so selfish. I took the UPCAT because I want to go to UP, be it Business Economics or Creative Writing. Should I pass the UPCAT, I will take it as a sign that the slot in either course was really meant for me, and I will fight for it even if I pass the ACET or the DLSUCET. If not, then that just means that there’s someone more deserving than me, someone whose odds are more favorable for UP than my own.

~ Despite my viewpoint stated above, I do not want to receive a letter of rejection in the mail. Who does, anyway? I’d rather a screencap of doom from http://upcat.up.edu.ph/ instead. .____.

~ Right after the UPCAT, I drowned my sorrows in Pancake House. Baby back ribs, banana pancakes and an extra thick strawberry milkshake. Nyuuu. @.@

~ I took a nap at 3pm, and I woke up barely half an hour ago. Entrance tests are so draining. @.@

~ But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. (Mt. 6:33)

Free day, Friday

Our teachers are probably off being holy in their retreat right now. Me, I just woke up half an hour ago. I’m blissful, but I’m not exactly looking forward to this day.

At the insistence of my parents, I restart my voice lessons today at 3pm. It’s such a hassle. >_< I needed to go to Nina’s house to tape our THE infomercial, but I guess that plan is foiled. In any case, I told both her and Cara that I’d love to do the video editing. Because honestly, I really would. X)

Since I’ll be stuck at home for the better part of the day, I’m going to read the reviewers from Sir Joel and my LSC books. With two weeks to go til the UPCAT, I’m doing all I can do to not panic. The back of my mind is racing and reeling, the red alert alarm blaring deafeningly. It’s just like that episode of Spongebob where he only knew fine dining and breathing, and all the little Spongebobs began to panic because they realized that they threw out his name.

Aside from reading for the UPCAT, I also have a senior’s responsibilities to fulfill. If there’s one thing I can’t neglect, it’s my schoolwork. I really need to show drastic improvement this year. It’ll be my strongest argument for when the time to appeal comes around. I have to finish to lay out three IW cards so I can finish them in school next week, begin writing my prayers for both CL and CSDC, doodle a jacket design, and moar moar moar.

I should probably devote an hour or two today for my Ateneo essay. I need to start drafting it, at the very least, so I can send it to people for critique, giving them ample time to read and I to revise. “Are there any significant experiences you have had or accomplishments you have realized that have helped to define you as a person?” Well, I’ll find out tonight. Before I begin to write with the intention of letting the panel know more about me, I think should first know more about myself.

Huh. Not exactly a free day, after all.

I consider our present sufferings insignificant
compared to the glory that will soon be revealed to us.
(Romans 8:18)

Dear friends, don’t be surprised by the fiery troubles
that are coming in order to test you.
Don’t feel as though something strange is happening to you,
but be happy as you share Christ’s sufferings.
Then you will also be full of joy when he appears again in his glory.
(I Peter 4:12-13)

Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them:
because greater is He that is in you,
than he that is in the world.
(1 John 4:4)

AMEN LORD AMEN.
I’m ready ad infinitum.