Physics Phail, etc etc.

I was crying over Physics last night. Literally. We just started on projectile motion, and I’m already so lost. :(

I just finished researching for my Eco card. I don’t know if I should continue the research work for my Physics card or start on my Physics homework.

I’m having such a hard time understanding Physics. >__< Trig, surprisingly, is getting easier. I’m so thankful that my seatmates are really patient with me, entertaining my dumb questions all the time. They really helped me, and I now know how to graph the cosine function. 83

Mmm. Either way, I’m finishing my essay for the Fil card tonight. So that’s one down, four more to go. Motherfather. :| I wish I could find that book of idioms. It would make my English card so much easier. T___T

I’m so preoccupied with IW. It doesn’t feel like the week before the first trimestral exams, nor does it feel like the week before the ACET. I regret that they are one in the same. Good luck to me. :|

My brain isn’t processing things right. :((

Drained.

I took my Filipino and Physics tests today. I think I did fine in Filipino, at least during the first four parts of the test. The fifth and last part of the test was poetry writing, four stanzas of four lines each. It had to be biographical, sociological, and symbolical all at the same time. :O In the end, I wrote about a doll of mine. I lacked the time to finish one stanza. I know that’ll be taken against me. I’m fine with that, I guess. I was really struggling for vocabulary. I’m hopeful for a G or a VG, and that VG’s really hoping.

Physics is a different story entirely. It only covered significant features, conversion of units and SOHCAHTOA. That should’ve been a good thing, but I blanked out. I knew what to do, I really did, but I didn’t know how to properly input the data on my scientific calculator. How messed up is that? I felt so stupid.

I don’t know what to do. I know my Physics concepts, but why do I screw up whenever I try to apply them? I mean, I already had a calculator. I have no skills at all. :(( I’m going to approach Sir Ron come Monday. I really need extra help. I have to jolt my brain into arranging itself before the meat of Physics comes up. Otherwise, I die. :| All my quizzes came back as U’s. I really need to talk to him. I was talking to Sir Mike about teachers holding consultations, and he said, “What’s there to consult? It’s only the second session.” Between Physics and myself, a lot. :|

Another subject I need to work on is Trig. I’m having a hard time with it, but I don’t think I’ll go to Ms. Helma just yet. My difficulty roots from the fact that I haven’t memorized the arcs and coordinates of the unit circle. I’ll do my memory crunches rigorously, and if I’m still having a hard time, that’s when I’ll go to her.

I hate being bad at math. I hate being bad with numbers in general. I hear a lot about the multiple intelligences and I agree with their theories, sure. But studying for the entrance tests, and a number of senior year subjects in general, shows the prominence and necessity of logical-mathematical intelligence over linguistic intelligence and musical intelligence. Logical-mathematical intelligence doesn’t only cover math and numbers, but it reflects one’s skill at critical thinking, argumentation, analysis and the like. My lack of which, I believe, is part of the reason why I failed at debate. (The other part was a lack of self-confidence.) I was always too subjective, so grounded on marshmallow soil. I could’ve never survived the high school politics. A salute to Elise and the rest of the team for all their achievements to date.

I’ve often thought of myself as only having half a right brain, and an occasional left brain. My IQ’s nothing special, and my EQ says that I have the leadership potential of a pile of newspapers. Yet, I look at myself with hope. Maybe, just maybe, I might have something that’ll give me a notch up on others. Maybe, just maybe, I can use it to my advantage when I finally discover what it is. Maybe, just maybe, I can get by.

Is it possible to feel humiliatingly stupid but not entirely unintelligent, at the same time? It sounds like such a paradox, but I shall willingly testify to the veracity of this statement.

Done! :D

I finished studying for the Physics and Filipino tests, just as I said I would in my entry almost three hours earlier. :D At least, I studied as much as I could until it felt almost redundant to read the same page for the nth time. The coverage of these tests is pretty small, especially Filipino since Sir Sonny decided not to include the short stories we’ve discussed in class or grammar. Physics will be the greater challenge for me between the two, though it won’t be an easy task to ace both of them in the first place.

Speaking of Physics, I also accomplished my Physics homework. ^_^

I doodled a caricature of the route to Trinoma, with PHYSICS in chunky gray lettering superimposed on it. It’s one of the most pitiful things I’ve done to date. I’ll just make an impeccable table of vectors tomorrow morning. At least it’ll also help me practice my tan and tan-1.

I still don’t know how to use tan and tan-1, though. I texted Alexa and she said something about tan becoming tan-1 when it moves to the other side of the equation, but I didn’t get it. D:

I hope I grasp these concepts eventually, sooner rather than later. I don’t remember being this slow, and I honestly don’t think I am.

I’m going to buy myself a small tin of Enervon Prime tomorrow. That’s how worried I am. And a good example of why this dorky little blog is dorky. :|

Distracted.

I had this habit of letting my mind wander too far from the present. I think that’s what I didn’t do so well in my last three years of high school. I spent most of my time constructing and reconstructing my ideal future instead of working towards it. It was distracting and unproductive.

I’m distracted now. My thoughts and apprehensions on college life are distracting me from the standard responsibilities of an average senior. I should be reviewing for tomorrow’s tests in Physics and Filipino, but I’ve been spacing out. My eyes unfocused on an unseen point, I’ve been creating a rough draft of my Ateneo essay in my head. I don’t even know what to write about yet, I’m just taking note of nice, general phrases to use when the time of actual writing comes. It’s “productive” if you twist the definition of productivity and squint a little, but I know that studying for my Physics and Filipino tests would be more useful to my short-term and long-term needs.

I should really study for these tests. I didn’t study for the last 2fer session tests I had, English and Economics. The night before those tests was the night I got Guitar Hero: On Tour, so I was too into the giddy geek role to play a student. I received my scores today. I got a G and VG respectively. They’re not bad marks, but their sub par to the standards expected of me and the standards I’ve set for myself. (I especially wanted to do well in my Economics test, since a lot of the courses I’m considering are grounded in economics.)

Tomorrow’s another 2fer, and I intend to do well in them both. I’m a bit worried for Physics, since I still don’t know how to apply the trigonometric function of tan and tan-1. I will ask for help tomorrow. I have to master these concepts at the same pace as the rest of my class – my class is really smart, I hate it. :| – and while it’s still being taught at present. I don’t want to make the same mistake I made in Chemistry.

Bottom line is, kidsgbishghfjosjdoakjofjofsdlsnsdonsfonlncsznovns.

Hey baby, what’s your sign?
Opposite over hypotenuse. :>