Senioritis!

I’m feelin’ it crashing over my like large, lazy waves. Emphasis on lazy.

With the UPCAT already over and my ACET forms already in Ateneo, it’s as if I could care less about the rest. I didn’t submit a form to UST anymore, and my DLSU and UA&P forms are still pristine and blank. I seem like I’m dead set to go for DLSU, but really, I just want to go to college. Emphasis on I just want to go to college.

These days, it’s been sabpag this and sabpag that. Sabayang Pagbigkas, and miraculously, I’m at the forefront of its development. :O Alexa, Raizel and I have been zipping around in preparation of this. Plotting out our practice schedules and agendas for those practices, it’s as if the poem grows longer and longer and longer. ._______. I’m the worst at memorization, so more points of pressure on me to be a good example. Durgh.

I have an Economics session test tomorrow. It’s two sessions combined, so it’s everything about Supply&Demand and Elasticity. I’m more or less well-versed here already, I just have to memorize the four standard thingies on the shifting of graphs and the formula for computing this thing that I have to remember. I sound like such a failure, but whatever. >___< Other than that, I’m pretty much dandy. I should be worried, I think. Or at least not so lax. After all, Economics is prevalent in my course choices. Which is weird, because I’m me. :|

The weeks ahead are going to prove challenging, and I really pray for the physical strength to get by. I’ve been having these wicked stomach pains since Sunday. It usually starts out with intense hunger, where my heart begins to race and I begin to tremble. Getting to sustenance is often an ordeal. Once I get my shaking hands on some food, I eat as if I were starved for an indefinite period of time. I just stuff it down my throat, barely enjoying the taste, just to get food in my stomach. My stomach aches after that, but I guess it’s because of how fast I ate? The strange thing is, after less than an hour, the hunger pangs begin to act up again. Sometimes I can’t help but sleep it off, it’s a sharp pain that extends up to my throat. When I get home, the same thing happens again. Late at night, I have to get up for a crap. A stinky crap. And then I sleep a tired sleep and I wake up tired and well, it’s really the same thing. I was talking to Bel (Hi, Bel. :-h) about it, and she thinks it’s a worm. That sounds plausible, but I really don’t have time to get it checked out. It’ll cause unnecessary stress for everyone – my eternally paranoid grandmother, most especially – and take precious time out of my schedule. I just hope this comes to pass soon enough. I can’t get sick(er).

A big huhuhuhuu at my life right now. Huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu. T_______T

UPCAT thoughts

Traffic at six o’clock in the morning, kamusta. :-h

~ I don’t wanna say much about it, especially my opinion on the content. I’d rather keep it to myself, for fear of bad karma in the future. Whether anything is easy or hard, it’s all a matter of perception anyway. HUHUHU SO HARD.

~ I prayed to the Lord for wisdom and discernment, and the calmness of mind to act accordingly throughout the test. I told Him, I don’t want to replay the test over and over in my mind, playing out what I could’ve done better. I guess you could call me around 90% satisfied with my performance during the exam. I kinda buckled twice, in the middle part of Math and towards the end of Reading Comprehension, but I forgave myself. It was inevitable for me to crumble during Math, and I luckily found the strength to pull myself together to finish the Reading Comprehension to the best of my abilities despite the given circumstances.

~ I can’t help but hope that the mock UPCAT really is a notch higher and as predictive as Sir Joel said it was. I got good stats for my mock UPCAT, good enough, so hopefully I learned from it and took its lessons to the actual UPCAT.

~ I don’t want to be one of the people who took the UPCAT just to say that they passed it. I used to be, but that’s really so selfish. I took the UPCAT because I want to go to UP, be it Business Economics or Creative Writing. Should I pass the UPCAT, I will take it as a sign that the slot in either course was really meant for me, and I will fight for it even if I pass the ACET or the DLSUCET. If not, then that just means that there’s someone more deserving than me, someone whose odds are more favorable for UP than my own.

~ Despite my viewpoint stated above, I do not want to receive a letter of rejection in the mail. Who does, anyway? I’d rather a screencap of doom from http://upcat.up.edu.ph/ instead. .____.

~ Right after the UPCAT, I drowned my sorrows in Pancake House. Baby back ribs, banana pancakes and an extra thick strawberry milkshake. Nyuuu. @.@

~ I took a nap at 3pm, and I woke up barely half an hour ago. Entrance tests are so draining. @.@

~ But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. (Mt. 6:33)

My UPCAT is tomorrow.

August 2, Saturday, 6.30am, Institute of Chemistry
August 2, Saturday, 6.30am, Institute of Chemistry
August 2, Saturday, 6.30am, Institute of Chemistry

Hashire! Kagayake! Hikatte misero!