Weekend of Doom

September 8: Trig session test, Physics Lab practical test
September 8 – 9: Last two days of IW
September 10-12: First Trimestral Exams
September 13: ACET

… How sadistic is that? :|

This weekend is crucial to my academic dignity. I have four IW cards, eleven/nine trimestral exams and one majorly big college entrance test to pass, pass, pass. I must not buckle.

T_______T

I’m nervous for the ACET. I don’t feel prepared. I’m a failure at Math. I can BS my way through English, but I’m just totally worried about the Math. I have a mock ACET tomorrow, though. It might as well be my only real review before the actual ACET. I almost forgot about it. I shall remind my parents so they can arrange my ride. Huhuhu. :|

Physics Phail, etc etc.

I was crying over Physics last night. Literally. We just started on projectile motion, and I’m already so lost. :(

I just finished researching for my Eco card. I don’t know if I should continue the research work for my Physics card or start on my Physics homework.

I’m having such a hard time understanding Physics. >__< Trig, surprisingly, is getting easier. I’m so thankful that my seatmates are really patient with me, entertaining my dumb questions all the time. They really helped me, and I now know how to graph the cosine function. 83

Mmm. Either way, I’m finishing my essay for the Fil card tonight. So that’s one down, four more to go. Motherfather. :| I wish I could find that book of idioms. It would make my English card so much easier. T___T

I’m so preoccupied with IW. It doesn’t feel like the week before the first trimestral exams, nor does it feel like the week before the ACET. I regret that they are one in the same. Good luck to me. :|

My brain isn’t processing things right. :((

My brain, it melts.

What’s the word?
That’s the word!

What’s the time?
4D last time!

Aww.

4D WIN!

We used to be a square, now we’re an octagon.
4D just got edgier!

I love my pussycat dolls and soulja boys. 83

I haven’t blogged all this week. It’s been sabayang pagbigkas practice day in and day out. I don’t mind, really. I love hanging out with my class. Tomorrow’s practice won’t be at my house though, it’ll be at Raizel’s. I don’t know what to expect since the environment definitely won’t be as liberal as my house – goodbye boisterous yelling and Cruel Intentions 3 – but I guess I’m finally getting my wish of getting out of my house. Note to self: Be careful what you wish for. >_<

I’m stuck with the problem of transporting all our props to Raizel’s tomorrow. Good luck to me, our props are a little bit bigger than life-sized. T___T

Not to mention that I haven’t done anything academic this past week. I haven’t started on the pile of homework given to us – come to think of it, I don’t even think I have the complete list :| – nor have I done any reviewing for the ACET. I’m in the second batch of the first day. I forgot to take note of the exact details, but they’re posted on our bulletin board. ACET math is supposedly the hardest math of all the college entrance tests, so it will definitely be the death of me who’s oh so bad at numbers. I think Logical and Abstract Reasoning will kill me too, but my mom said she’d help me with these techniques she learned at law school, a place where, according to both my parents, I will eventually set foot in. (Set foot in, in this context, means to sink into slowly and painfully, like quicksand.)

I put Legal Management as my first choice, and I do not have any course choices in the School of Humanities. Surprised? Me too. If I pass the Ateneo, I wish to shift into a course at either the School of Humanities or the School of Social Sciences. As god as my witness, I do not want to be a lawyer. I really, really don’t. T__T

I can play a lawyer on a top-rated soap opera, though. XD

Sabpag is my sleeping pill.

There are no words to describe the physical and mental exhaustion I feel right now. I have to be awake at 6am tomorrow, and for the rest of the week. I’m home by 7 or 8pm, and heaven knows what time I’ll get to sleep. During the day, breakfast is sometimes skipped and lunchtime sustenance will only last for an hour or so. From then, it’s resisting the lightheadedness and low sugar levels til the late afternoon, where carbs and Coke are consumed to get by for the next two hours. It’s really tiring. But I wouldn’t trade it for anything else.

4D: Ikaw, sa Kabila ng Lahat. ♥

Senioritis!

I’m feelin’ it crashing over my like large, lazy waves. Emphasis on lazy.

With the UPCAT already over and my ACET forms already in Ateneo, it’s as if I could care less about the rest. I didn’t submit a form to UST anymore, and my DLSU and UA&P forms are still pristine and blank. I seem like I’m dead set to go for DLSU, but really, I just want to go to college. Emphasis on I just want to go to college.

These days, it’s been sabpag this and sabpag that. Sabayang Pagbigkas, and miraculously, I’m at the forefront of its development. :O Alexa, Raizel and I have been zipping around in preparation of this. Plotting out our practice schedules and agendas for those practices, it’s as if the poem grows longer and longer and longer. ._______. I’m the worst at memorization, so more points of pressure on me to be a good example. Durgh.

I have an Economics session test tomorrow. It’s two sessions combined, so it’s everything about Supply&Demand and Elasticity. I’m more or less well-versed here already, I just have to memorize the four standard thingies on the shifting of graphs and the formula for computing this thing that I have to remember. I sound like such a failure, but whatever. >___< Other than that, I’m pretty much dandy. I should be worried, I think. Or at least not so lax. After all, Economics is prevalent in my course choices. Which is weird, because I’m me. :|

The weeks ahead are going to prove challenging, and I really pray for the physical strength to get by. I’ve been having these wicked stomach pains since Sunday. It usually starts out with intense hunger, where my heart begins to race and I begin to tremble. Getting to sustenance is often an ordeal. Once I get my shaking hands on some food, I eat as if I were starved for an indefinite period of time. I just stuff it down my throat, barely enjoying the taste, just to get food in my stomach. My stomach aches after that, but I guess it’s because of how fast I ate? The strange thing is, after less than an hour, the hunger pangs begin to act up again. Sometimes I can’t help but sleep it off, it’s a sharp pain that extends up to my throat. When I get home, the same thing happens again. Late at night, I have to get up for a crap. A stinky crap. And then I sleep a tired sleep and I wake up tired and well, it’s really the same thing. I was talking to Bel (Hi, Bel. :-h) about it, and she thinks it’s a worm. That sounds plausible, but I really don’t have time to get it checked out. It’ll cause unnecessary stress for everyone – my eternally paranoid grandmother, most especially – and take precious time out of my schedule. I just hope this comes to pass soon enough. I can’t get sick(er).

A big huhuhuhuu at my life right now. Huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu. T_______T

Another Sunday’s Checklist

Wall-E. <3

But ugh, back to reality. My rest day went by so fast. ;_____;

[x] English monologue 5.38pm
[x] English write-up 1.17pm
[ ] Physics short story
[x] Economics magazine cut-outs 11.23pm
[x] contribution to economic glossary 8.40pm

Everything’s piling up. My head is spinning and I’m scared that I’m going to lose it at a most inconvenient time. I already catch my mind wandering off a lot as it is. IWith session tests and IWs and homework and sabpag and college entrance tests, it’s not hard to drift into fanciful daydreaming instead. This is the load of a regular, average senior, so I can only imagine what it’s like for the Micasols and Raizels and Daphnes of the world. How they handle themselves, gracefully despite the pressure, is laudable. It inspires me to carry my burdens, so carry my burdens I shall. \:D/

Death of brain.

I will do actual work with tangible output tomorrow. I wish to act as I am right now, which is brain dead. T_____T

UPCAT thoughts

Traffic at six o’clock in the morning, kamusta. :-h

~ I don’t wanna say much about it, especially my opinion on the content. I’d rather keep it to myself, for fear of bad karma in the future. Whether anything is easy or hard, it’s all a matter of perception anyway. HUHUHU SO HARD.

~ I prayed to the Lord for wisdom and discernment, and the calmness of mind to act accordingly throughout the test. I told Him, I don’t want to replay the test over and over in my mind, playing out what I could’ve done better. I guess you could call me around 90% satisfied with my performance during the exam. I kinda buckled twice, in the middle part of Math and towards the end of Reading Comprehension, but I forgave myself. It was inevitable for me to crumble during Math, and I luckily found the strength to pull myself together to finish the Reading Comprehension to the best of my abilities despite the given circumstances.

~ I can’t help but hope that the mock UPCAT really is a notch higher and as predictive as Sir Joel said it was. I got good stats for my mock UPCAT, good enough, so hopefully I learned from it and took its lessons to the actual UPCAT.

~ I don’t want to be one of the people who took the UPCAT just to say that they passed it. I used to be, but that’s really so selfish. I took the UPCAT because I want to go to UP, be it Business Economics or Creative Writing. Should I pass the UPCAT, I will take it as a sign that the slot in either course was really meant for me, and I will fight for it even if I pass the ACET or the DLSUCET. If not, then that just means that there’s someone more deserving than me, someone whose odds are more favorable for UP than my own.

~ Despite my viewpoint stated above, I do not want to receive a letter of rejection in the mail. Who does, anyway? I’d rather a screencap of doom from http://upcat.up.edu.ph/ instead. .____.

~ Right after the UPCAT, I drowned my sorrows in Pancake House. Baby back ribs, banana pancakes and an extra thick strawberry milkshake. Nyuuu. @.@

~ I took a nap at 3pm, and I woke up barely half an hour ago. Entrance tests are so draining. @.@

~ But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. (Mt. 6:33)

My UPCAT is tomorrow.

August 2, Saturday, 6.30am, Institute of Chemistry
August 2, Saturday, 6.30am, Institute of Chemistry
August 2, Saturday, 6.30am, Institute of Chemistry

Hashire! Kagayake! Hikatte misero!

July ends tomorrow.

I got the results of my mock UPCAT today.

English: 92.00%
Math: FAIL 62.00%
Science: 78.00%

Average: 77.33%
Passing: 60.00%

The mock UPCAT is supposedly a notch harder than the actual UPCAT, and somewhat predictive. Therefore, I do not know how to feel. :|

August 2, Saturday, 6.30am, Institute of Chemistry
Here I come!

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